I feel like a over-stretched balloon today - a balloon that's going to burst anytime.
Its not just me,a number of colleagues feel the same way.
Everyone is just hanging on and biting their teeth.

What keeps everyone going on? I have heard them complain but as compared to my ex colleagues, they complain much less! Its quite amazing.

To be frank, i admire their resilience and fighting spirit.
And i do like the teamwork here.
Even though everyone is so busy, we will still spare time to help each other.
If i have queries, my peers will extend their help readily.

Maybe this is something i have not experienced before in my previous jobs. Also, the strong leadership displayed by Keppel senior management is also something not found in SPH. They are personable people and i can see the friendship among them. Of cos, they compete and collaborate with one another.
I guess internal competition among departments/ business units is good in a way to keep people motivated.

Sometimes i wonder if i have been brainwashed by Keppel. This is because we have always emphasised on our Can-Do Spirit!
I am surprised by my big boss's decision to work with an SME where they lack many capabilities. She said that we can help build their capabilities and somehow through the pains, we learn more.We will gain more.
She is most happy to see us go through angst and encounter issues and problems. This is because she feels that young people need to go through pains to grow and learn faster.
I experienced that in Feb/March.
Its quite a painful experience producing a journal.
Its our inaugural publication and i had many quarrels with my business unit.
Luckily things took a turn and we have sorted our issues and become friends now.

I do feel proud of Keppel but i do not know if my stamina can keep me going for the next 3-5 years. The thought of working past midnight for two consecutive months during annual report season puts me off. Somemore, i have another journal to complete by April. That might mean three consecutive months!
I pray things will change in March.I do not want to work my ass off.

Actually compared to the 1st 6 months when i first joined, workload is a lot lesser. I can knock off at 7 plus already!
I used to leave office at 9plus or 11pm almost everyday in the past.

I guess, no matter what, there will be all kinds of complaints and grumbles in every job.

Maybe i need to get fit so that i do not always feel tired.

Also, i need to save and invest more rigorously so that i can go without a job for a few months in the years to come. That is to go jobless anytime without any worries and do the things that i enjoy!
Wu Hou Gu Zhi You!
New resolution : Save 1.8k per month!!!!!

But i feel better now after listening to songs. A pity i have no energy to sing. I feel sad that i do not have the time and energy to seriously pursue my interest.
To learn what singing and song writing is really about.

Still, i'm a happy babywong.
Going to bathe now.
Smelly.